Insight?

okay, this may be totally random and weird and it may give you too much insight into my psyche....but here goes.


last night i woke up at 2:30 am with a horrible migraine headache.

i don't get these very often any more and when i do i can usually knock them out with some excedrin....or it's equivilant. however, i'd taken the last one sometime last week and failed to get more....bad thing about being a procrastinator....so now i'm up at 2:30 and having to throw on shorts and a sweatshirt and drive to walgreen's in the middle of the night.


so, i get home, take my excedrin and go to the den to try and stretch and relax and do things that i think might help me unwind.

i did this for about 15 minutes and then headed back to bed.


now, backtracking, earlier in the evening, i got a message from someone in a group i'm in on facebook. we had a page with our favorite quotes and i had put mine as "live the life you've imagined".

she asked me what that was.....i still haven't answered as i wanted to think about it for a while......creating rugs, being able to get up early and walk the dogs down some path in the woods that we'd created ourselves, having the luxury to plan and cook meals most nights, working part time at the job i'm currently in, vacationing to different spots every year....lots of things come to mind.

also, before falling asleep i started reading a new book called "saved".


it has stories of animal rescues and the people the animals are now with....i read the preface and 1 story from this book before going to bed last night. i had also finished reading "the big leap" earlier in the day.




it's about taking your life to the next level and about how we have "upper limit problems"....that we have a thermostat that is set to let us only feel "so good" and how to go about breaking those barriers....sometimes when people have a good day or have hit a milestone they either start destroying their relationships or get illnesses or what have you.



so, of course in the middle of the night when i woke up with the migraine i started wondering if my migraine was caused from an "upper limit problem"....i had just had a great day off work, had time to plan a nice supper and everyone loved it and i had also gotten the laundry caught up, the dogs were calm, we had decided on what to do with the rest of the decorating scheme in the den....things were really starting to come together....it really couldn't have been a more perfect day.



now, i go back to bed and i have the oddest dream. i go out to my backyard and i have lonnie with me (lonnie is not that great with dogs he doesnt' know) and there is a rottweiler in our backyard. lonnie doesn't seem to mind him and goes back in the house. when lonnie is back in the house i go up to the rottweiler to see if he has a collar or tags on....he doesn't, but he starts talking to me

....telling me that he is so sorry he scared me, but he just needed a place to stay for the night, that he us really friendly, but that people judge him by the way he looks and how sad it made him that he didn't have a home or someone to love him. so we are talking about his problems and when i turn around their is a humongous dog behind me lying down

.....he looks like a big newfoundland but he is probably 10 feet long....he started telling me in his elvis sounding voice that he has also lost his home because he is so big and eats so much but he really just wants to find a home where he can be of service and help protect people and their animals.....while i'm talking to these two dogs I wonder out loud to myself, "i wonder how many dogs talk and feel this way" , as i turned around there were about 20 dogs at my back fence gate waiting to talk to me and tell me their stories and needing my help.

and then I woke up.

What does this mean?